Humbled

Yesterday was a hard Mothering day for me. I won't get into all of it, but I felt sorry for myself. I also felt very frustrated. Brett was kind and made dinner for the kids and sent me off to Enrichment. When I came home I could hear that the kids were still up and this bugged me. I didn't want to deal with them. I wanted them to be quietly sleeping in their beds and I would find my happy self for the next day. Brett asked me to come upstairs and when I did all the kids started crying (crying again according to Brett). I guess Brett had sat them down and had a long talk with them. Again I won't go into all of it but I did want to share part of a letter from Ellie. Ellie is a hard nut to crack. She will act as if she doesn't care when she is being talked to about something but if you give her some time her wall completely crumbles. I think because she has a hard time sharing her feelings she will almost always write you a note apologizing or just professing her love for you. So last night this is the note she wrote me (in part/condensed):

Dear Mom,

I am sorry I stopped helping you today. Do you still love me? Please forgive me. I love you! I think you are a great mom don't be so hard on yourself. I love you so much I can't even show how much I love you. Mom I will do all that I can to help you.

Love, Ellie

Of course I will forgive her, but will she forgive me? Then I read "don't be so hard on yourself". How does she know that I am hard on myself? She has such a tender heart. She tries to hide it sometimes; but it always ends up shining through. I am so blessed. I have a wonderful caring husband, and three of the sweetest stinkies ever!